Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
MIMPI, orang slalu kata mimpi itu mainan tidur..betul ker?ataupun mimpi sbnrnyer ingin menyampaikan sesuatu maksud ? ataupun sbb terlalu banyak berfikir tntg sesuatu perkara, terbawak2 ke dlm mimpi ? which one is the truth ?
Dulu aku slalu mimpi benda bukan2..masa skolah aku slalu mimpi jatuh gaung..almost every night ..and it was very scary..feels like betul2 jatuh ..even tersentak ..
The variation of intensity kejatuhan tu pon berlainan..kadang2 mcm skit jer..kadang2 mcm jatuh teruk ...this dream really scares me off..so I ask my ustazah once..
She said that I should seek for apologize from my parent...dia kata mungkin aku ade kcikkan ati mak bapak aku , or being too stubborn , never listen to them ..in a simple word -" anak derhaka.
YES. it's true..masa zaman remaja , i'm a bad daughter. I dont listen, I just rebel. I think ,everything in my life is not fair. I hate my father , dia suka marah2 my mom, and us. But he NEVER beat us . Owh, maybe ONCE . tu pon sbb adik aku yg lelaki jatuh dlm longkang masa main ngan aku. jadi bapak aku marah , blame it on me sbb tak tgk2 kan adik . I hate him more.
Because of the hateness..I can't have a good relationship with my father. walaupon dia ckp baik2 , I still feels like sangat2 menyampah ..I'm full of anger..Lucky that I stayed with my grandparent during primary school and dok asrama masa sek menengah ..So I dont have to see my father's face everyday ..
The more I hate my father , the intensity of fallin in my dream becomes worse..kadang2 terlanggar batu la,kayu la..gaung kan..
When I started working year 2004 , mimpi tu mcm makin berkurang. i believe that have something to do with my relationship with my dad. Bila bapak dah makin tua, aku rasa mcm kesian sangat kat dia. Bila dah kerja , baru aku paham mcm mane bapak uruskan duit gaji nye yg skit tu untk family kitorang yg besar. Now I understand the pain that my father keep inside him , and why he's full of temper when i was young. Maybe Allah swt nak tunjukkan pada aku apa yg bapak aku rasa selama ni , I'm merely like my father now.
After I got married last year , I never have that dream anymore. Alhamdulillah.
Beside that dream , i always dream about gigi tertanggal ..bukan patah, tapi tertanggal mcm luruh camtu ..sangattt banyak ..bukan sebatang dua je, seluruh gigi biasanya gigi atas..bila pegang je tercabut..then slalunye mimpi tu mesti sampai penuh tangan ngan gigi yg tertanggal tu ..
At first , i think that's funny ..but when i make some reseacrh , googling and asking the older, they said there's nothing funny bout that. mimpi gigi tertanggal tu maksudnye badan byk penyakit, tak sehat. Again , YES. I'm not in a good health. I dont really care bout what i eat , what i've become, how obese i am , if i have my menstrual that month or not..I dont really care.
Until I get married and started to feel I really want to have my own baby. Then I start to change everything. from what I eat,how much i eat , exercising and so on. 2008 was the starting year, a real one. and again , its been about half year i didnt get this dream ..
Adakah semua tu kebetulan ? ataupun sbnrnye mimpi mmg menyampaikan sesuatu maksud?
terpulang pandangan masing2. Yang baik kita ambik , yg buruk kita jadikan sempadan ..
